As the years pass us by we all make mistakes. We have all had some moment in our lives that was a big " DUMBY ! " I find myself with this one mistake that I can do nothing about but live with it. It never fails either the moment i forget about it the topic is brought back up again. So here i am living with something i wished had never happened.

The other big thing on the brain is love. Its crazy how 4 months can seem so long when really it isnt at all. Some of me finds my self searching and the other half of me is running away.

Well im tired and not feeling like typing . stay tuned

So lost

I cant help to find my self so happy yet feeling like im standing still. Afraid to miss out on something that i should have tried for first but wondering weither im wrong. Whats different now ?? What changed ??

Im demanding what i deserve.

Hello Im 20. I consider myself an adult . Now dont get me wrong i love to have fun. I love to laugh all day. I like sleep overs. I love to color. I will always be that girl that sticks her hands in the mud or gets excited to jump in a water puddle. I would love to play tag and im a huge fan of poking. With all that said i still am an adult. I have been threw i ton in my life. Not very many people know my whole story and im fine with that. I keep it that way cause ill never be the one searching for a pity party. Life happens. Its not easy. I am a firm believer in people choose how they act you may be slightly influenced by your parents or your childhood but you can change that. Be strong stand up. Make the difference.

Anyways I got on about this topic because most recent in my life I have been receiving the up most disrespect from someone who is older and you would assume wiser than I. There is nothing more exciting than being ignored when your calling someone or getting hung up on or being treated like the plague in person and you know what Im sick of it ! What is wrong with society ? People young and old... some just have issues. What happened to talking things out. What happened to caring? 

I find myself to be a very caring person. I always try to help out whenever i can. I normally am stretching myself so thing im exhausted.Well this decsion i made for myself in concern for my own health and happiness . Im sorry if you didnt like it. Please put your big girl pants on and treat people like they deserve to be treated.