Wow i havent felt like this in a while . I have not shed tears in a while and right now i feel like im on the edge. I just got done having a convo with someone who means the world to me and i finally feel like they are happy. I finally heard the tone in their voice that i missed. And i really hope that he continues in the choices he is making and sticks up for himself and figures out what he needs ! And it may be dumb but i just want to cry. Tears of happiness and saddness all at the same time. I find myself sitting here alone wondering whats next and yet honestly okay with where i am but ready to take the next step even if that step is a baby one. I wish i had someones shoulder to cry on. I wish i had someone here with me. Right now i dont want to be alone....