hmmmmm

Wow so you never know when its gonna hit ya. well today at work i had a gentlemen and he was one of the colorist dads and everyone was like doesnt he smell good. and i was like idk i never smelled him and they were like he has that dad colon. and instantly it hit me i had no clue what that was. And it made me miss my grandpa so much and wished that i still had a dad around that could hug me and be the ruff guy on the outside but know that he has a soft heart. :)

So on my way home from work the water works happened. I started crying and it was the first time since jan that i had tears rolling down my cheeks. There was no stopping it either. I cried the whole way home. I miss my grandpa so much. and i always dreamed that he would walk me down the isle one day. I always hoped he would scare guys that came to the house. My grandpa always was a little quiet sometimes but beth and i always knew how to get on his good side. I know that he is in a better place now but i just wish i would have told him more often how much he meant to me before he passed on.

I LOVE YOU GRANDPA ! ( thank you for being the dad mine never was)