Were playing life its your turn

Most people say they hate playing games yet here we all are caught up in the game of life. All of us wishing the real world was as easy as Hasbro makes it out to be. There is no obvious stop and pick career or stop and get married. You don't get an extra spin. Every choice comes with a new load of responsibility some are so easily made and others take forever to just step in the door. 

Some moments you feel like you dont care how long it takes and others you wonder how long should you wait here. If things weren't like this they would be different but isn't that obvious. If you change the rules to the game then its not the same game. duhh. 

I cant describe how i feel. I can try to reason why i do. I can try to mentally prepare myself so the hurt wont hurt. What if the hurt never comes? What if this an okay place to be? What if there is something someone better ? Will it be easy to walk away? Will we still be friends? Is this right ? Is the distance to much? Is this all that will happen? Is this what i want?

When thoughts become to much its much easier to sleep.