Round 2 any takers ?

Its crazy how you can debate one decision you make over and over in your head till you have spun so much you wanna hurl. This whole time i could have bet my life on it i knew why it hurt but after some talks and lots of thinking i stand corrected. This summer was way more than i ever expected and now that its over i feel like other things are so close to death. I needed you . Everyone in my summer actually. Im totally convinced that i have been affected by everyone ive grown close to this summer. I also find it hard to believe that you didnt need me too. We needed it each other i guess that was part of the game, living parallel lives for so long then smashing together head on. These last few weeks of my summer have been hard. Ive been faking the smiles and faking the laughs. Ive been faking so long i think i may have lost my loud giggle all together... The reason my stomach turns every time and im paranoid every time we talk is cause im afraid nothing will be the same . You dont need me anymore. I can hear you say this isnt true and if its not ill be excited too. Yea i guess thats it....Hoping things will go back to the way they were before.