Everything in life has its positives and negatives. We all have our ups and downs. Its finding the things that bring more positive than negative that separates the likes from dislikes. The darkness scares me i hate to be alone in the dark. Its cold, lonely, and scary. None of which i like to feel however i love the stars. I like the quiet of the night. Both of which are worth the dislikes sometimes.
All people have their reasons for the actions or feelings or choices they make. Not everyone will understand or even agree to what you have done but in the end even if someone else convinces you other wise you will probably fall back to the way you feel.
Im finding out more every day that somethings are just hard to explain. I cant truly tell you enough so you know how i feel with out it sounding childish or even slightly stupid but to me its not. My reasons are justified and completely understandable.
Lately I've been searching for my escape. Feeling like i just want to go somewhere else. Indiana, Wooster, NYC, Nashville... somewhere. How it is now ... is it gonna stay like this ?? I want things to change but that may be very selfish of me.
Going to sleep. another positive thing about darkness... dreams... negitive ... night mares... dreams are worth the chance !
Changes are good. Do it. I'm in Hong Kong because I needed this education for my future, but also wanting a new scene. Seeing the same people and building up a strong bond with them are great, but you are also putting yourself in a routine. I'm not a routine type of person. I need new faces, new places, new stuff to keep me thinking/going/living. If you want change, go for it, as long as you come out as a better person in the end. :)
ReplyDeleteYea its just figuring out the right time and the reasons and the funds
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