Irony ... a little when the one thing you try to avoid swoops into your life at the perfect timing that you've decided to give it a chance. Im not saying i regret it. Im not saying im completely overjoyed with what i did. I can't tell you why my heart took an interest. I broke all the rules to see if it would be better than before... Two lives going in opposite directions some how meeting for a moment. I was hoping to bring you up but you brought me down. Its fine if you want to live your life that way but i want more than that maybe more is a bad choice of words. I want different than that. I felt it , the thought always somewhere in the back of my head, wondering when it was gonna hurt how long will this last. Till one moment it hit me your freaked i cried you said sorry i said okay and we went on again then last night it hit me again. you freaked. i almost shed a tear. I knew it was right this time. How you handled it just adds to why i had to say goodbye. When you know the person that means the most to you wouldn't approve of someone your trying to make the next most important. Its time to step back and stop justifying cause the longer you wait the longer it may hurt. A piece of me still wishes you could change but its something that really may never be. Im looking ahead. Loving God . My friends and life itself. Still looking for Love. This time hopefully in all the right places.
Stay tuned :)
sometimes i wish we could just rewind we could do things diffrent read the bible slow it down have more fun. clouds came over life heart was confused ppl got hurt. rewinds not an option in life. the feelings inside make me still wonder is the heart pointing true or is it just a spinning compass. family gone life broken sorry is all that comes out. love is still in the heart
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