i love the sun!

Today was so warm !! i loved it . every chance i got i was sitting outside at work !! Then i got home changed and went on a bike ride with Aaron !! woot ! more sun !!! then ate at R's pizza with the lockers and watched bedtime stories. GOOD MOVIE !

So here is the dumb thing i did today . i went to plug the little lamp i have in my closet in and couldnt figure out why it wasnt working . so i unplugged it and realized one of the little fork things broke off in the outlet. so the smart person i am i try to pull it out with my fingers and shocked myself. my arm kept feeling like it was vibrating for like ten min. no joke. how dumb. so now i have an outlet with a prong thing in it .... any ideas on how to get it out and not kill myself .lol

So dumb . hahaha

so ive decided that the things women put them selves threw for beauty is just redic sometimes but yet we all still do it . I say this because im sitting here for the last hour or so painting my toes and i kept messing them up or not liking them and have finally finished and have to go to the bathroom so bad my stomach hurts but i continue to just sit here cause i dont want to ruin them. SO dumb but here i sit .

I am so excited for Warm Weather ! today was so beautiful ! to bad i had to work 12 - 9. but its was still great !! . Today was such a good day at work . i was so busy ! woot. I love summer !! I really want to get a new purse . not that i need one but i really want one . I cant wait to make a trip to grove city! woot coach outlet .!! I want to get a smaller purse ! mine is way to big . I also need to re paint my toes lol . this may not seem like a big issue but it is lol . i dont like the color and i need to change it . I read another chapter or so on new moon last night so im moving right along again . i keep hearing that new moon is the worst out of the season but i dont think its bad so i cant wait to read the others cause they must be awsome !!

Daily Battle

My room is cold every morning and my bed is so warm and so every morning i find my self in the same battle. I always seem to hit the snooze to many times and its not because im tired its just cause i know that when i get out from under the covers its gonna be freezing !
You know what i mean ??

This is my dog Lex Luther . Kinda random but its a cute picture of him on my bed lol .

Sorry for the Leave of Absence :/

So i havent wrote a blog in forever it feels like and that makes me really sad i have so much to say . ( Sorry if this blog isnt very entertaining )

The last few days have been so random. i mean they have been fun but i dont know what i was doing lol . I tend to over think things that shouldnt and react to soon on things that need thought out. i guess it could be a patience issue. I just find myself wondering what people are thinking and how they feel .and i just want to know lol .

So stuff has come up that i feel like maybe needed to come up but i kinda was feeling like it just maybe never would. and it still makes me feel funny. 2009 has been such a year of new feelings for me . im not sure how to act and i wish my lover beth was here to sit with me and talk all night. I love all my friends here so dont take offense but its one of those things that when it comes from beth it just sounds right lol . Anyways . ive been trying to feel so happy for people and be friends and blah blah and someone told me tonight something that may seem so simple but i just didnt see it . they told me that i dont have to be friends with everyone . Simple right ? Well i seem to spend most of my life worring about other people and making sure there happy and forgeting how i really feel. Forgeting what is gonna hurt me in the end. So i wonder can you be happy that something happened and i know im so much happier now and i love where i am right now in my life but yet it still hurts to see it. Its like looking at something that makes you sick to your stomach but yet you keep looking and even if you start to run away you find your self looking back. Why ! can we ever get away ... this may all be confusing unless you know what im talking about lol . I guess im just trying to say im so happy but i just want to get away ( preferably somewhere warm lol )

I also dont know where im going in my life from here . i feel like im in such a stand still . Im 19 and have my career job and work with a ton of wonderful people who i love to death ! Whats next ...??? I need to just live life and love it but i just want more lol .

I wish i could know what would happen if i did something before i did it . I want to say something to someone but dont want to ruin it ... I wish i could be a ninja inside his brain and figure it all out . lol i guess time will see .

Well i think that really covers a lot of it . It also makes me sad that i have not picked up my new moon book in like 3 days. i really need to get to reading that ! Man i have just fell off the face of the earth for a few day . but no worries lol im back !

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting,
challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

So i was on a hunt for my favorite lines from the sex and the city movie which is . BIG :Aren’t I a little old to be introduced as your boyfriend? CARRIE :Point taken. From now on... you’ll be my man friend. . lol love it . when i stumbled upon the above quote that was from one of the seasons. I read it and just thought it was so true.

well anyways . today has not been to exciting . i really want to go on a bike ride . but im not really sure how im gonna get my bike to the trail and who is gonna wana go with me lol. then later im going bowling . woot . though im not really sure whose all going there either.

Cant wait for the summer to get here !!

Another Day!

Today was a fun day. This morning i woke up 3 mins before my alarm and thought i slept threw work cause it was really sunny. kinda gave myself a heart attack. I seem to be doing this more often than not though lately. i always seem to be waking um 10 mins before my alarm . annoying ! Well then i went to work . 9 - 5 . i usually dont work till 12 so i was like working half asleep this morning . its kinda like that every sat. it kinda takes me a while to get with it. It was so nice out today. I sat outside and chilled during some of my free time. Kinda sad though i forgot to make a lunch for myself and i didnt want to order food cause im so sick of ordering food. and i never seem to have cash. im really trying to watch my spendings now though cause i dont think my car is gonna make it much longer . its not really bad or anything its just getting old and i think one day the whole car is just gonna fall apart. lol . I keep telling myself im starting a purple bug fund ! woot. i would be so happy if i had a purple bug ! So anyways back to my lunch. i had this huge plan about how i wanted to try grilled cheese with pickles on it. like the flat sandwhich ones. I love pickles ! so much YUMMMMM . You know how they sometimes come with tomatoes on them at restraunts well why not pickles . that would be good. or at least i think so . im not sure cause i forgot to make it. Well then i got home from work. showered . ran to wal-mart for some last min party needs. then rocked it out all night !! well until now .lol I am starting to realize that there are a lot of man haters in the world. My clients today . geeze . They always tell me to never get married and all men are jerks and liars . I just cant see that . i really dont think all men are like that. I mean yea some are stupid and some are jerks but you know what women are too. Some women are awful and treat people like crap. and most of us are a little over emotional lol . But anyways i know plenty of people who are happily married. People need to be more optimistic sometimes ! Lifes to short to be sad all the time ! WEll im heading to bed . its that time of the night when i need to spend some quality time with my pillows lol . NIGHT !