Im demanding what i deserve.

Hello Im 20. I consider myself an adult . Now dont get me wrong i love to have fun. I love to laugh all day. I like sleep overs. I love to color. I will always be that girl that sticks her hands in the mud or gets excited to jump in a water puddle. I would love to play tag and im a huge fan of poking. With all that said i still am an adult. I have been threw i ton in my life. Not very many people know my whole story and im fine with that. I keep it that way cause ill never be the one searching for a pity party. Life happens. Its not easy. I am a firm believer in people choose how they act you may be slightly influenced by your parents or your childhood but you can change that. Be strong stand up. Make the difference.

Anyways I got on about this topic because most recent in my life I have been receiving the up most disrespect from someone who is older and you would assume wiser than I. There is nothing more exciting than being ignored when your calling someone or getting hung up on or being treated like the plague in person and you know what Im sick of it ! What is wrong with society ? People young and old... some just have issues. What happened to talking things out. What happened to caring? 

I find myself to be a very caring person. I always try to help out whenever i can. I normally am stretching myself so thing im exhausted.Well this decsion i made for myself in concern for my own health and happiness . Im sorry if you didnt like it. Please put your big girl pants on and treat people like they deserve to be treated.

screaming in the pillow

When did choices become so hard ? Actually it may not even be that the choices have become harder but the verdict from the choices are more threatening !? As we become adults our choices have greater consequences that not only affect us but everyone around us as well. Talk about pressure. Here i find myself  20 already once feeling like i had accomplished all of life and was ready to move on to the next step then a giant bolder knocked me down and im starting over. Im excited because im ready to be proud of the life im living it will just be a lot of hard work to get there. Im ready to be accomplished ! Im ready to be proud of me !

Though back to that choices thing. They just suck. I find myself never knowing what the right choice is or where im suppose to be going . why did is it so hard to realize whats right and what im suppose to do . What is the right way from here ? when do you sit back and wait and when will waiting be wrong ??

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The trip was success :)  So many fun moments ! To many to tell with not enough time or energy to write it. it being 3 am with a lovely sleeping pattern . Super funny :) If you want to know more ask !