So much of me wants to play the game but i dont know if i like the game actually or maybe its the players or maybe its the rules.... /sigh. am i playing wrong ? is there a game at all? or is everyone cheating and for some reason there is a mutual okayness with it ???  

I guess ill just keep playing and see what happens...

its crazy how fast a day can go up and then down. .... i think im stuck in a limbo right now. and its easy to think everything is gonna be fantastic but i just wonder if it really will be .