Ridiculous ... hahaha

So this morning started with me checking my oil before i left for work but to my surprise my oil was completely empty and and my coolant was running low and i had no wind shield wiper fluid ... How do i let so much time pass on my car and not check these things. I know i need to check them but i just get so distracted and lost in my own little world that my car maintenance gets pushed back and back. but now im gonna really try to step up to the plate cause i need to start being more responsible. I totally forgot to pay my cell phone bill that was due june 1st and its now the 5th. Its not a big deal cause its in my grandmas name and she always pays the whole thing and i just pay her but i still need to be responsible and pay her on time cause what am i gonna do when im on my own. My grandma is not always gonna be there to cover my butt. I also realized today that my insurance is due July 1st along with another cell phone bill and i pay my insurance ever 6 months so its gonna be like 400 $. which i have the money in my savings but thats just less money in this fund that is suppose to be going to a new car and italy. hmmmm ..... I really need to crack down. I need to stop spending freely and focus on the needs and not wants.

Work was really good today. I did have a few cancelactions but it was okay cause i had a LUNCH !! well dinner . lol i went to peaburrys and got a salad and sat in my car and listned to the radio and had dinner. It was kinda nice to just sit and chill and not eat fast food. I had a little meeting with one of the managers today at casal's. She called me up to talk about some stuff . blah blah and then we talked about my LCN's and she said that they were looking really good and she wants me on the books for them and because there is only one other girl that does them and im a junior that means im gonna be booked threw this whole year !!! Im so excited and i like doing them. i just need to work on getting my times down. Im so happy. Its such a career move and it will help me get promoted because i will have great return clients and people will be pre booking with me threw the next year ! We also talked about how i dont have complaints and she told me that im doing so good and all my clients love me and she likes my work. It was just so good! It made me feel so good that im getting somewhere. I know its just nails but its what i love and it feels good to know im doing good.

So back to the car thing. I found out my car is not leaking oil. I just think because its so old that its starting to go threw oil faster. i only think this because someone told me that may be the case. So i just need to keep an eye on it.

Also i have been thinking about how ridiculous i have been about not liking my smile. lol It just has seemed to come up like a million times in the last few weeks and the more i say it i just feel stupid and im so over it ! I have a huge smile but who cares. Thats just me ! So the karen face may be taking a vacation for a little bit . hahaha i guess my big smile just goes with my big loud laugh. Some things in life you just cant help or change.

Im just not feeling it

Today was a good day . shopping and just chilling with my friends all day. There were so many random moments that i kept saying i need to blog this . but i totally forget . the only thing i can seem to think about right now is the fact my grandma just told me i need to check my oil cause there is some kind of leak in the garage where my car sits . so yay for me . So the real thing is im not really sure how to check all the stuff in my car and if the oil is leaking what to do and how am i gonna get to work if my car is being dumb and when i got to the reeds tonight i thought it smelled weird but i just ignored it . which is probably not such a great idea . but i know nothing about cars so even if i didnt ignore it i dont know where to look or what im looking for ...... gah so it should be fun in the morning trying to figure out myself whats wrong with my car ........ This is where the problem lies when you live in a house of 3 women and im the one that everyone calls to fix stuff . So tomorrow morning i have to play mechanic which trust me is not going to go well . i need the little help ball and i want to push the button !!

Pillows !...

Okay so i have to start this blog with a little backround info just so you understand where im coming from . lol . I have a twin day bed and for some reason i have 3 body pillows 4 or 5 normal pillows and 1 throw pillow . Thats a whole ton of pillows and there really is no room to really sleep but its cool i like it ! i love being surrounded by pillows that way i always have something to cuddle with . but anyways so the real story this morning i woke up and some where in the middle of the night i lost my blanket on the floor which is not the weird part but instead of picking up the blanket i covered myself in pillows .... hmm lol i woke up this morning and all the normal pillows were strategicly placed to cover me like a blanket . This was just so weird and yet so funny to me all at the same time !

Yummm Choco Milk

So today was pretty much a whole day of nothing and im not sure how i feel about it . i woke up read some eclipse played wii went to breakfast with desi came home read some eclipse played wii read some eclipse fell asleep . went to the lockers come home facebook .

So i love having time to myself cause i have so much stuff that i could be doing yet i hate being by myself . lol if that makes sense.

So whenever i have a lot of time to myself i tend to over think. i always find myself pondering on a question all day lol and here was todays question ....
Do you ever find yourself over reacting because your afraid of repeating the past ? and yet you feel like you may have found your self doing it again ... ? hmm .

Side note - i just had a delicious glass of milk just how i like it . mostly milk with a little bit of chocolate . just enought to barley change the color.

Grandma's

So desi just text me to tell me that her grandma locked her as in desis keys in desi's car . and of course i find it funny and i told her that one day shes gonna be just like her grandma and then we joked for a little bit and then said that one day we both maybe just like our grandmas. lol which means for me i have to loose 10 inches of height . lol but really i may be okay with that . my grandma is 68 and mostly healthy with a boyfriend and a social life ( lol and she gets awsome voice mails) and spends lots of time at church ! . She seems so happy most of the time . I think i would be cool with that . well minus the whole i hope my husband is still alive but the point is that even though my grandma is a little crazy and talks a lot and forgets things alot and asks me the same questions like 5 times in a row . she is a pretty sweet grandma and i love her . Id be cool with being like her when im older . lol

: ))

I feel like i have a lot i want to say and i hope i word it all right . lol

So i feel like prom was a success . no there wasn't a lot of dancing but im cool with that . Some people danced more than others but over all it was super fun ! I love dressing up so when i got to wear my dress ... i was so happy !! It was also a late night which is very fun also. i love staying up late. Though i was kinda sad that i had to get up at 9 to clean everything up and have bay back to the church before i had to work at 12.

So work ... I really have to say im so lucky to have found the perfect job at 19. I am so blessed. I work with wonder women !! and love my job even if i complain sometimes. Tonight was fun . There was like a party of like 15 - 20 8th grade girls and they were all getting there fingers and toes polished and one of our nail techs didnt show up and they didnt really have it organized to who was going where and with who so it was like every nail tech for them selves and we just jumped in and tried to do them all as fast as we could and i was at work till like a quarter till 10 . which really isnt that late but usually im out like a 8: 30 . Though it was amusing to listen to little jr high drama and crushes . lol so cute .

So i bought daves wii !! Now i just need to find sometime to play it. I havent really had a free moment since i bought it that i have felt like playing. :/ I think tomorrow is gonna be that day though !! Weither i play by mylsef or with someone im gonna be playing wii and reading twilight and i may throw in a few magic games and a little facebook time . Sounds like a good day off to me ! The fun part will be trying to figure all the little things about the wii i dont know . Like locker came over for a little bit tonight and told me i could get internet on the wii and then something about updates . but im not really sure if it went threw or how to really do all that . lol im sure ill figure it out someday.

So im pretty excited for camp !! I cant wait to just spend a week with all my friends and just chill. shane called me this morning to work a few days with him next week . so that should be fun !! I kinda wish i had some that would go to camp with me to work ! that would make for better car rides . not that 45 min . is long it just would be FUNNER ! lol if someone was with me . Its not that fun to eat farmer bills by yourself ...

So to end this blog i wrote a little something something at work today ...


If i keep staring
will something change
or as time goes on
Will it all be the same

If i blink
or just stop to look at the ground
When i look up
Will something new be around

Time is my friend
And yet not all the same
what do you do
When time plays its games .


Like i said just a little something something . what do you think ??