So today was okay . no bug buts im okay with it . i just need to seriously start saving and try to get credit some how . besides that it was just work . I really wanted to play in the rain but no one would play with me lol .

So here is my question . why do we do stuff that we know is gonna hurt us ? Its like watching a car accident . you just have to stop and stare at it and you cant look away . though that doesnt really hurt you but i think you know what i mean . There is something that still makes my stomach hurt and for some reason i keep looking at it . grrr to myself lol . maybe one day ill stop . hopefully today is that day .

Anyways well im probably gonna read some more new moon . its getting really good !! i know edward is coming back and i cant wait !!

LIME GREEN !

Today .. lol what a day . i totally thought today was just gonna be a random day . do jenns nails . and test drive a bug just for the fun of it . well then i realized why just test drive it . I love it !! love it so much . a bug is like my dream car. i test drove one that was diesal and it was cool .liked it . then i test drove a lime green one !!! woot . gas 81,000 miles 2002 !! looks great !! heated seats. tinted windows . 8,000 dollars !! love !! here is where i get slighly sad . This car is totally afforadable . i can totally make payments but i cant get anyone to loan me the money . ( bank wise ) my g-ma is the only one really that can co sign for me and they would not accept her cause she has no income and so tomorrow i have to go to my bank and see if they will give me a loan . however with the way the economy is going that could be ruff . SO i have a plan B if plan A falls threw but if plan A and B both fall threw im just gonna forget the bug and start saving. and establishing credit some other way so one day i will not run into this problem.

Then i went rollerskating ! woot . so much fun . with desi and josh and kyle ! it was a lot of fun though i didnt wear the right socks and now my ankle has a huge cut and i fell once when i was trying to be stupid lol and my knees hurt when i walk . lol but it was still fun !!


SO to explain the picture lol . yes i am kissing a sheep . but i bought the sheep at bath and body works before christmas and now they sit on my computer desk . they are so soft i love them . lol well not love . just really like lol . anyways the point of the pic is my hair . look how curly it still is . i have straightned it and washed it a million times and the curl is still there lol . today it rained and poof ! curly ! lol . im not sure how i feel about it . sometimes i like it and sometimes im just like GRRRR . lol

Im excited for the zoo ! & Prom !

Nothing exciting going on just hanging out with friends ! Cant wait for may ! woot . so many things to look foward to !! I got a new case for my phone !! lol . well besides that nothing to exciting . Jenn and i are gonna test drive a bug tomorrow . It would be so sweet if i got a new car sometime soon .

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Okay so today at work . well really this tends to be an every day occurrence when i work . Some where in the day boys are brought up . ( this should be no suprise because i work with over 200 women . lol) Though its almost starting to get annoying. Everyday it seems someone says something and the ranting starts. Its all just so depressing . Im the youngest in the spa and im actually really proud of that . Not to brag but how many 19 year olds can say they have a job in there career field and are getting paid well . Anyways not the point of the blog . Where i was getting to with the age thing is they are all like 28 - 32 or 40 - ? im not sure cause usually when women get that old they dont tell people there age. anyways and all of them are single mothers . well except like 4 . now there arnt 200 women in the spa . there are like 30 or so of us in the spa . but only 4 are still married . One of them asked the question today is love really enough ?? . what kind of question is that ?? What happened to if you really love someone then you would do anything for them . ( side note : listen to the song grandpa by the judds . Its on my myspace) It doesnt matter about looks or money or anything . If you love them than isnt that enough !! Others have been broken up and back together and broken up so many times you would think they would realize its not gonna work ! I mean there had to be some reason you broke up like 12 times . i mean once or twice maybe but idk.... One of them told me that its impossible to be happily married . WHAT !?!?!?! that was the stupidest thing i ever heard. She told me she only know one couple that is happy and married . Instantly i thought of john reed and debbie . beth and jonathan . Eric and Jenn . all very happy couples !! I possibly could be a hopeless romantic or whatever but what is there to be excited about with out LOVE ! I LOVE LOVE !! which may be corny but whatever. I Love God and My Friends & Family !! I Love Life !! There is so much to love . i just cant imagine lliving without it !! And one day i hope to be happily married !! to a husband that loves GOD and we can grow old together and still love each other unconditionally ! . i know life is gonna be hard and i know that any relationship will take work . but i know that i can be happy one day !! I know God has a great future instore for me !!

WEll there is my little LOVE Vent . lol

What do you think ??

PINK or BLUE ?

Im pretty excited for the FCC promande lol. I was thinking about going out and getting a new dress but then i thought about it and im just gonna re wear one of my old ones . SO heres the question which one ???

The one on the left was from my junior prom !!

The one on the righ was from my senior prom !!

HMMM i cant choose . I asked all the people at work but of course some of them like the pink one and some like the blue one . Either way i go i think im gonna have to get them altered cause there both to big. and they have wrinkles cause they have been vacum bagged . so im gonna have to get them steamed or whatever.

Today was so fun ! Church was great . it was so warm !! The locker aaron josh and i all went for chinese after church !! so delicious. THen aaron and bruce and i watched nick and norrahs infinte playlist which was a really good movie then den fest which was fun then just chilling and hanging out at FCC till like 11.

Im so excited !! were planning an FCC prom !! woot . its gonna be so much fun . everyone seemed really pumped about it at church . I hope it turns out great !!

May is gonna be such a busy month Im so excited !! . Woot to the summer