Im Fragile

Today was an okay day . My left shoulder hurts so bad and its not bruised on the outside but i feel like its coming and you can feel where is swollen if you feel the left and the right you can tell the difference. So working today was really lame . It hurts whenever someone touches it . Im kinda hoping it doesnt turn black and blue cause that would be my luck . i get bruised easily and summer is here and i will have this bruise for like a month .

Tonight i watched Marley and Me with Jenn and Eric . We had pepperoni rolls and guacomole . lol im getting so good at this cooking thing . i love it !!

Well i hope tomorrow goes smoothly . i have the plan of attack set up but im sure there will be a bump in the road . but i have an amazing team ! so far its bailey debbie desi travis and kyle . maybe josh too . the goal is to be done and have my hair ready by 4 30 for the soft ball game . well see if that happens .

Another Day

Happy B-day Bailey !

So i almost slept threw work today . i set my alarm for 9 and turned it off then fell asleep and woke up just in time i had ten min to change and leave for work . Work was okay . nothing to exciting . Then bays b-day bonfire . so much fun . Nothing better than a smore and skywalking ! lol .

Well i got to go to be cause 8 am is gonna come faster than i want it to .

Fabulous !!

Today was a good day . spent some quality time with some friends it was awsome . then swing dancing and now home to chill and read then sleep . I didnt get anything i needed to get done today but it was great anyways . i seem to never have days where i just chill on a couch all day and just talk and relax. and i must say today was fabulous !!

Team Edward !

Woot ! im so excited that eclipse is getting so good ! i read 4 chapters and didnt fall asleep !



TEAM EDWARD !!!

H2O

Today was a good day . i worked 12 - 9 and this morning desi and i did pilates. I also got threw the boring part of eclipse and am pumped to read a ton tonight and hopefully not fall asleep. I have a super busy day tomorrow . except for a few hours . im pretty pumped to get my hair cut !! thinking about getting it shaved ! lol jk . never ! i would cry . i dont think you could pay me to shave it .... well maybe cause i could always buy a really sweet wig . but you would have to pay me a ton. Then i have calling hours to go to and then a soft ball game and then swing danceing with bailey later . WOOT . should be a mostly fun day . I also need to still get stuff for prom . like water and stuff for smores . but i dont want to go by myself . i may see if bay and i have time to go inbetween the soft ball game and swing dancing or i may see if i can convince someone to come with me after my hair cut . i just dont want to carry all that water and stuff by myself.

Good Times

Movie night was fun ! lol we watched Veggie Tales and Beauty and the Beast . not really sure how those got choosen but they were enjoyed ! . lol well here goes to a late night wal mart run ! LOVE EM !!

Laughter is the KEY !

So today is the last day off in a row . kinda sad but im ready to go back to work . i kinda actually miss it . i feel like i have way to much free time. Today so far was a random day . This morning with some not so great news and then went on a walk with desi then played some magic . and later tonight i hopeing for a movie night . I sent out all the invites and now im just waiting to see who all is coming and then the big question will be what movie do we watch. Well ill have to tell you later how it goes .



So i really think today is it . Today i feel like its really over and im okay . Some of me feels like i owe john reed like a hundred hours of his life back from talking me threw everything over the last few months. but i dont know where i would be with out him . I thank God everyday for putting people in my life that have helped me grow so much even some people that may not realize it .

Ive been talking to a few random people today about just how i have been feeling and what im thinking . Sometimes i feel like im getting no where and my life is such a stand still but i need to grow more towards Christ . i have fallen so far and feel so lost sometimes cause i feel like i should know way more than i do . I want to have my own opinnions and actually know why i have them and not just form from everyone elses. So i guess i need to find a me . lol i need to decide who i am . I mean i love being me and ill never change that . ill always laugh way to loud even in public . Ill always be trying to make plans with people . and have a ton of friends. I will always seem to find some reason to why i should buy more shoes and i will always enjoy playing video games and magic. I cant help those things . but i need to be able to defend myself in the real world .

well good bye for now . i may try to read some more twilight and not fall asleep on my book .

Bike Ride

So today was fun . was on praise team with debbie and locker ! woot . it was awsome . then got free pizza at a meeting . would have been better if it were just the pizza and no meeting . lol Then went on a bike ride with bailey and debbie . well actually when i first got to debbies we all took a nap on her bed . lol then we went on a bike ride. btw i love john reeds bike . its so much better than mine . We rode to the cemetary .... Cemetaries can be fun to look at all the things nice/awsome/ funny things people write but then other times its just really sad. or well it makes me think a lot . It makes me wonder why someone else had to die and not me . im not saying i want to die or anything i love life . but i sometimes feel like i dont have that much to offer so why do i get to live a longer life than someone else ... ?? Also i start to thinking about how blessed i really am . Sometimes i feel like the stuff i am going threw is so big and all but really its not . I mean my life hasnt been perfect and its been a rollercoaster but whose hasnt . We all have our pasts and everyone seems to have their family issues but thats just life . I am so lucky with what i have that i should never complain . I mean come on i have a place to live . a job that i love ! and work with some awsome ladies !! and i have the worlds best friends !!

Well so there was my little brain ponder for the day . im not sure that it all came out how i wanted it to cause when i start typeing i tend to ramble . lol well here goes to another night of trying to catch up in eclipse.