Wow i havent felt like this in a while . I have not shed tears in a while and right now i feel like im on the edge. I just got done having a convo with someone who means the world to me and i finally feel like they are happy. I finally heard the tone in their voice that i missed. And i really hope that he continues in the choices he is making and sticks up for himself and figures out what he needs ! And it may be dumb but i just want to cry. Tears of happiness and saddness all at the same time. I find myself sitting here alone wondering whats next and yet honestly okay with where i am but ready to take the next step even if that step is a baby one. I wish i had someones shoulder to cry on. I wish i had someone here with me. Right now i dont want to be alone....

Panda Bear *

So after some deep thought which no worries was not that deep i think my next big buy is gonna be a hammock. Now here comes the deep thought. I want it to be sturdy . i dont want to buy a hammock that lasts for the summer and then breaks. I want it to last ! and also i want it to be a two person ( at least ) hammock. I want to be able to chill by myself or with friends. :) also i think depending on the price i want a stand. i think i may buy just the hammock now and then maybe get a stand later depending on how expensive it is. Cause i have two trees i could hang in on but when i move out of my gmas i may need a stand.

Sheep :)

So my clothes are all washed and folded from camp the only thing left is to put them away / hang them up and my room will finally be back to normal !

Today was a great day ! Spent some time with God ! Then went to lunch and spent the whole day hanging out with friends ! It what i like to call it a whole day of laughing ! I cant wait for this week its gonna be so fun ! Im going swimming on tuesday and harry potter then ikea on thursday ! woot !!

Sea Lion :)

So home from camp and showered ! :) the laundry is in the process of being started.

Camp was fun as usually but like usual after a long week im really glad to be home. I could sit here all day and write about all the funny things that happened but im just gonna pick two of my favorties. One was when i did the pamper pole. I felt so dumb cause my legs were shaking so much and i couldnt stop them but that was a huge step for me and it was super fun. i want to do more high ropes stuff and try to concer this heights things. maybe even one day ill like coasters. :) Moment number two would have to be campfires especially the one that we went to main side. It was so awsome. I have to say not the most moving moment in my spiritual walk but a good one to push me back to where i should be focusing ! Though i still find that i struggle knowing what choices are the right choices ?I guess just keep praying about it right .

WEll it looks like im back to laundry and then maybe some breaking dawn !!