So sadly i may be loosing a room mate :( I really liked having someone here with me to talk to and make late night walmart runs and clean my car with and listen to me talk when im being completely ridiculous about something. Its gonna be hard re adjusting to not having someone here in person for me. Though i guess it had to happen eventually but i was hopeing it wouldnt be this soon. It will be weird not being here for her. I mean i know there is always a phone and really she will not be living that far away but its not the same. The dugeon is gonna feel so empty. No more hugs that make everything better or someone here to know when im having a bad day or hurt. I know that i have friends that would be there for me and new friends that im finding are so easy to talk to about anything and so understanding. I guess there is not much more to say but life is full of suprises so i cant wait to see whats going to happen next... :/ :)

Wow i havent felt like this in a while . I have not shed tears in a while and right now i feel like im on the edge. I just got done having a convo with someone who means the world to me and i finally feel like they are happy. I finally heard the tone in their voice that i missed. And i really hope that he continues in the choices he is making and sticks up for himself and figures out what he needs ! And it may be dumb but i just want to cry. Tears of happiness and saddness all at the same time. I find myself sitting here alone wondering whats next and yet honestly okay with where i am but ready to take the next step even if that step is a baby one. I wish i had someones shoulder to cry on. I wish i had someone here with me. Right now i dont want to be alone....

Panda Bear *

So after some deep thought which no worries was not that deep i think my next big buy is gonna be a hammock. Now here comes the deep thought. I want it to be sturdy . i dont want to buy a hammock that lasts for the summer and then breaks. I want it to last ! and also i want it to be a two person ( at least ) hammock. I want to be able to chill by myself or with friends. :) also i think depending on the price i want a stand. i think i may buy just the hammock now and then maybe get a stand later depending on how expensive it is. Cause i have two trees i could hang in on but when i move out of my gmas i may need a stand.

Sheep :)

So my clothes are all washed and folded from camp the only thing left is to put them away / hang them up and my room will finally be back to normal !

Today was a great day ! Spent some time with God ! Then went to lunch and spent the whole day hanging out with friends ! It what i like to call it a whole day of laughing ! I cant wait for this week its gonna be so fun ! Im going swimming on tuesday and harry potter then ikea on thursday ! woot !!