Just me talking my thoughts out

Life is so easy to get all caught up in ! ...isnt it ? Some days i feel like i missed out on something. I know we all have different paths and all but some of me wonders if i skipped a part. Did i take a wrong turn or am i on the right path ? I really do love where i am right now dont get me wrong i just wonder what would have happened if i would have made different choices. As i sit here alone i cant help but think about the big plan i had for my life when i was like a freshman in high school and wow has that changed. I wonder if i would have met the same people. Would i be going to the same church ? Would i have met the Love of my life? I guess whose to know right . lol God has a plan for me and i hope that at the end of the day i am making him proud ! I dont know what hit me this weekend but im so ready to dive into Gods word. I want to read and know more! I want to live a life for Christ . I want to be more confident in my faith and be able to talk to people about it. I also would really love to work on the whole praying thing . I just get nervous and feel like my prayers are the generic thanks for the food thanks for the day and keep us safe Amen . And i do mean all that but i just feel like there should be more or someway else to say it. Well ill get back to you on my progress when it comes to talking to God.

I also want to start practicing my flute and piano more. I dont want to loose my flute skills and im not that great so i would like to get super good. and do harder pieces and actually get somewhere on the piano/keyboard what not. Im really hoping for a clarinet for christmas. I put the word in with the mom lol and so i think it made it on the list. hahaha :) It would be so cool if next christmas desi and i could do a duet for church ! and i could play the clarinet. Though im kinda worried that ive already forgotten how to. If so ill have to teach myself again. :)

Well thats pretty much it. i just feel like i need to get more serious about things. My life is so easy that there is no excuse why i am not putting forth the effort to really anything. So its time to get focused !! I am even gonna completly clean my room and the basement !! The goal is thanksgiving ! To have to basement completly spot less !!!!

Right now is one of those times where i feel like i have so much to say but dont know how to say or feel like typing it out so i guess im just gonna go to sleep

Tom is a new beginning of an old thing !

So i need to jump back on the band wagon. I dont do well with diets that cut things out of my meals but am good at just cutting back and ive been slacking so much lately. Maria and i were doing good there for a while working out but this week we kinda have been slacking. Just getting sick of doing the same thing everyday so were waiting on this new dvd to come. And tonight i got on the scale and .... gahhh . lol just no good. so tonight i did some crunches and packed my lunch for tom and sat and packed myself so dinner for my drive to cincy ! My problem is im a nibbler. Ive always been i get bored and then start thinking about food. lol So i need to start changing whats in my fridge. no more junk food more carrots and broccoli and good snack foods !!! Im really gonna try to cut back the fast food ! especially at work These past few weeks have been crazy its been like everyday . yuck . So im venting and telling you all this cause i need someone to hold me to it ! Dont let me eat past my full stage and help me cut back to going out for food ! Im going to cincy this weekend and i feel like it should be good for this lol. Im with dave all the time and i never even think about being hungry ! Im so excited to see him too !!! I cant wait !!! Im almost finished packing. just have to do the last min things :)

I promise One day !!

So i had the most fabulous weekend !!! Drove to cincy ! yes i am a beast and drove the whole way with out stopping !! I also drove home with out stopping and i got home at 4 am ! yea i would love to never do that again . hahaha not so fun . And i have a new rule never get off at an exit unless you can see the golden arches !! i was in the ghetto at 2 am and i really was scared for my life.

Then work today ... lol never a dull moment. 2 client of the day fire alarm goes off and we had to evacuate the building and stand in the parking lot until the fire trucks came even though there was no fire . I guess we would get fined big time if we dont evacuate. lame but its better to be safe than sorry.