Found some words

So as the grand cleaning continues i found this poem and wanted to post it so i would not loose it.

I keep smileing
Can you see how i feel
I just want to shout
So you know whats real

I want to be loved
As more than a friend
I'll never look like her
Does that matter in the end

I should be happy
With where im at
I seem to be bored
Im ready. Up to bat


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If i keep starring
will something change
or as time goes on
will it all be the same

If i blink
or just stop to look at the ground
when i look up
Will something new be around

Time is my friend
and yet not all the same
What do you do
When time plays its games

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There they are . They may be unfinished but i dont feel that way anymore and its hard to write something you dont feel anymore. but like i said there posted so i dont loose them . :)

Fun fact for the day . No matter how much you want it to . Things do not clean themselves .. :(

Just me talking my thoughts out

Life is so easy to get all caught up in ! ...isnt it ? Some days i feel like i missed out on something. I know we all have different paths and all but some of me wonders if i skipped a part. Did i take a wrong turn or am i on the right path ? I really do love where i am right now dont get me wrong i just wonder what would have happened if i would have made different choices. As i sit here alone i cant help but think about the big plan i had for my life when i was like a freshman in high school and wow has that changed. I wonder if i would have met the same people. Would i be going to the same church ? Would i have met the Love of my life? I guess whose to know right . lol God has a plan for me and i hope that at the end of the day i am making him proud ! I dont know what hit me this weekend but im so ready to dive into Gods word. I want to read and know more! I want to live a life for Christ . I want to be more confident in my faith and be able to talk to people about it. I also would really love to work on the whole praying thing . I just get nervous and feel like my prayers are the generic thanks for the food thanks for the day and keep us safe Amen . And i do mean all that but i just feel like there should be more or someway else to say it. Well ill get back to you on my progress when it comes to talking to God.

I also want to start practicing my flute and piano more. I dont want to loose my flute skills and im not that great so i would like to get super good. and do harder pieces and actually get somewhere on the piano/keyboard what not. Im really hoping for a clarinet for christmas. I put the word in with the mom lol and so i think it made it on the list. hahaha :) It would be so cool if next christmas desi and i could do a duet for church ! and i could play the clarinet. Though im kinda worried that ive already forgotten how to. If so ill have to teach myself again. :)

Well thats pretty much it. i just feel like i need to get more serious about things. My life is so easy that there is no excuse why i am not putting forth the effort to really anything. So its time to get focused !! I am even gonna completly clean my room and the basement !! The goal is thanksgiving ! To have to basement completly spot less !!!!

Right now is one of those times where i feel like i have so much to say but dont know how to say or feel like typing it out so i guess im just gonna go to sleep