New Favorite !!!

Verse: 1
Every time i turn the conversation to something deeper than the weather i can feel you all but shuttin' down.
And when i need an explanation for the silence you just tell me you don't wanna talk about it now.

Bridge: 1
What you're not saying is coming in loud and clear we're at a crossroads here...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone

Verse 2:
With you i've always been wide open like a window or an ocean. there is nothing i've ever tried to hide.
So when you leave me not knowin' where you're goin' i start thinkin' that we're lookin' we're lookin' at goodbye.

Bridge 2:
How about a strong shot of honesty don't you owe that to me...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone.

Consider me a memory.
Consider me the past.
Consider me a smile in an old photograph someone who used to make you laugh.

If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
Then i guess we're done let's not drag this on.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Just consider me gone.







Consider me Gone - by Reba Mcentire
This song is my new favorite !!

So people always talk about going back and fixing the past or wanting to relive a moment or whatever but i dont want to. I dont want to go back. Im okay with my past all points of it the good the bad the ugly. It has made me who i am today and who i am today i like. I may say some stupid things and i may not always make the best choices but you know what im proud of me! The past is in the past for a reason. Your experiences help you to grow and be who you are today. So even though when your 3 life seems so easy and it is. your biggest concern is being tagged it. I would never want to go back and mess up what i have gone threw cause like i said before it has made me the woman that i am today !

i have nothing to say but im gonna be fine and already am and im moving on and im living life for God !!!

Wow what a day ! and for once i feel so proud of myself. :)
My morning was kinda a wreck but i recovered so well. So heres my day... woke up . well first i slept in till like 10 30. :) love !! then i got dressed... ate some cereal... did the whole morning face routine and left for work. well about 3 mins down the road i looked in the rear view mirror and was like ohh crap i forgot to put make up on. which is a super no for work so i turned on the next road and went home grabbed my make up bag which its now 11 20 and i got back in my car and realized i was on E and i was like dang it . so i ran to wal mart and filled up. now its 11 28 and i have to get to canfield :) well by the time i got to work and grabbed my ticket sheet and clocked in it was 1157 woot ! three mins early. lol well my first client was there and waiting on me but she was cool about it. did her fill and it was probably the best fill ive done in a while and now that i know what i was doing wrong with the LCN's im so on my way to full recovery :)hehehe and then i did a model which got fabulous reviews and then i had some clients and did another model. both looked fab! Im so proud. then the rest of the evening was spent talking about the toga. Im so excited for tom. i have plans to get my hair and make up done and maybe so lashes :)

Then we were talking about guys ... and everyone i work with is so bitter about the guys in there life but a few of us. and i cant help but smile all day when i think about dave cause i know how lucky i am. <3

so now im eating edamame which holly told me that soybeans may be a cause to my acne problem which saddens me cause i love it so much so starting tomorrow im gonna try to go at least 3 months to see if it helps not eating it.

Today was such a confidence boost. I feel so comfortable with who i am and my looks and the fact that i am eating healthier :)

I can only think of one thing that would make today perfect .... :) BeAreMy. I dont know why i thought it would get easier being apart but it doesnt. It totally sucks. some days it just kills me knowing that were are so far apart but i know this is something that will make us so much stronger :) ill love you forever !!