Jump for the moon and you may land among the stars

Everything in life has its positives and negatives. We all have our ups and downs. Its finding the things that bring more positive than negative that separates the likes from dislikes. The darkness scares me i hate to be alone in the dark. Its cold, lonely, and scary. None of which i like to feel however i love the stars. I like the quiet of the night. Both of which are worth the dislikes sometimes.


All people have their reasons for the actions or feelings or choices they make. Not everyone will understand or even agree to what you have done but in the end even if someone else convinces you other wise you will probably fall back to the way you feel.


Im finding out more every day that somethings are just hard to explain. I cant truly tell you enough so you know how i feel with out it sounding childish or even slightly stupid but to me its not. My reasons are justified and completely understandable.

Lately I've been searching for my escape. Feeling like i just want to go somewhere else. Indiana, Wooster, NYC, Nashville... somewhere.  How it is now ... is it gonna stay like this ?? I want things to change but that may be very selfish of me.

Going to sleep. another positive thing about darkness... dreams... negitive ... night mares... dreams are worth the chance !

Fall :)

Fall is by far my favorite season. Well maybe Spring idk they are like the same... kinda.

Its time to get serious about working out and loosing weight cause its only gonna get harder the colder it gets and   the holidays only bring more and more food ;)

Another adventure :)

Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting,challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.   - Carrie




I love this quote and not only the quote but i want to be the next Carrie Bradshaw just maybe  with a little more Christian morals. lol ;) So step one move to NYC ... Lindsay and I were talking about this tonight. The goal is set for next summer. Lindsay and i are going to move the big apple well maybe right outside the big apple and find a place we can just rent for three months or so. It would be awesome if i could find an internship while im there and see what being a real journalist is all about. If not though it will be just another crazy summer with a little more independence. Which it in itself is kinda scary and leaves me wondering if this could really happen. could i afford this ?? Could i really just move for 3 months and come back ?? Whats holding me back though?? Well i guess we will have to see when next summer comes. or more like February cause thats when i'll have to start looking for a job and an apartment.... hmmm  yea stay tuned