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Wow so you never know when its gonna hit ya. well today at work i had a gentlemen and he was one of the colorist dads and everyone was like doesnt he smell good. and i was like idk i never smelled him and they were like he has that dad colon. and instantly it hit me i had no clue what that was. And it made me miss my grandpa so much and wished that i still had a dad around that could hug me and be the ruff guy on the outside but know that he has a soft heart. :)

So on my way home from work the water works happened. I started crying and it was the first time since jan that i had tears rolling down my cheeks. There was no stopping it either. I cried the whole way home. I miss my grandpa so much. and i always dreamed that he would walk me down the isle one day. I always hoped he would scare guys that came to the house. My grandpa always was a little quiet sometimes but beth and i always knew how to get on his good side. I know that he is in a better place now but i just wish i would have told him more often how much he meant to me before he passed on.

I LOVE YOU GRANDPA ! ( thank you for being the dad mine never was)

My Precious

So let me give you the background cause you know with me there is always a story. :)

My first summer at camp i bought a WWJD ring and it fit on my thumb ( by the by i like thumb rings cause i have always thought i had very good thumb structure lol :) ) . I wore it for years. every summer at camp. there was maybe a few moments when i took it off for a little but then i always put it back on. then one night working at taco bell ( one more reason to not like taco bell lol ) I was taking the garbage out and i flung the bag and my ring flew off into the dumpster with it. That was a very sad day for me cause i had never had a ring that long that i loved so much.

So now fast foward a year and a half later i bought another thumb ring from lion and the lamb. and it was cooler than the last one. it was the crown of thorns. :) so sweet i loved it. the only problem with it was its hard to massage people at work with it on . so what i was doing was taking it on and off every client . Well today as i was doing a manicure i realized i was not wearing it !!! So in theory i must have left it at a station and someone took it or it fell off somewhere or its in my house. but where its not is on my thumb. So sad. i didnt even have this one for two weeks... :(


I really hope my thumb rings finds its way home! :)

More found words

Life's a Journey
You've heard it before
Sometimes it gets hard
But well make it for sure

I love you today
And tomorrow will be
Another day of pure happiness
Forever you and me !

Found some words

So as the grand cleaning continues i found this poem and wanted to post it so i would not loose it.

I keep smileing
Can you see how i feel
I just want to shout
So you know whats real

I want to be loved
As more than a friend
I'll never look like her
Does that matter in the end

I should be happy
With where im at
I seem to be bored
Im ready. Up to bat


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If i keep starring
will something change
or as time goes on
will it all be the same

If i blink
or just stop to look at the ground
when i look up
Will something new be around

Time is my friend
and yet not all the same
What do you do
When time plays its games

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There they are . They may be unfinished but i dont feel that way anymore and its hard to write something you dont feel anymore. but like i said there posted so i dont loose them . :)