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The heart is such a crazy thing... the way it was/ felt years months or even just moments ago can change in an instant. One quick happening in life can throw your emotions in a total roller coaster. Is this normal? Do your feelings of everything and anything can they, are they suppose to just change all the time? 


When it comes to the heart and choosing have you made a list? I feel the easier question would be who hasnt ? And even if you havent physically wrote down this said list you have one. When you look at someone and at first glimps decide yes or no the reasons that sway you one way over the other... Volia you have your list. So is it impossible to find some one with everything on the list? Ive recently been told that it is and that it will never happen. I cant help but wonder why not ? Maybe i already know them but the timing is bad. People change what if the person i know now doesnt have everything on the list ... wait right. give it time and if its meant to be they will have the whole list. I keep finding the problem being my number one thing. The rest could all fall apart and i honestly could care less however what if someone has the rest and not the number one... Its so easy to feel like i should just give in. Though i hate saying give in cause its not like that. though i guess it kinda is.


Then like every romantic chick flick out there. People experience that WOWish moment that they just feel something. Is that real? Cause then there is the whole. they have everything on your list but no WOWish moment. 


Well with these things in mind and love somewhere in the back of my nogin i think im gonna put my heart on cruise.  


                                                      -Stay Tuned


P.S. with the new layouts i havent figured out how to add a comment button but i would still love your opinions comments snide remarks. i want it all. email me or something links off to the left :)

Wishes

"Wishes"

The saddest thing is you could be anything
That you could want
We could have been everything
But now we're not
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream i built with you
A fairytale that isn't coming true
You've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

After all the things you put me through
Tell me why i'm still in love with you
And why am i, why am i still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life i gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye 

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I seriously love superchick and i think every girl should too !! Boys your more than welcome to join the love but its more a girl thing ;) 

The Kbell update - Salon = Sloooooow but im still there. Its crazy how something that one year you can be so pumped about doing something and a year later care less. I really dont know if i like doing nails anymore. I enjoy doing them but i do not like sitting waiting around forever doing nothing and getting paid nothing. I dont want to do it forever either. I want to have a profession im proud of.  I get more excitement out of saying i work at Dunkin Donuts. I honestly think that is just cause i know that i am working crazy hours and never complaining. 

I did a ton of running around today as well. and then i will be watching some FMA. There is only a short amount of time till the convention :) !! well i must eat dinner . have you ever been glared at by a 4'11'' grandma . not a pretty sight. ;) Farewell.

                                                        - Stay Tuned 

Thats life plain and simple

So here we have life, going on as usual. Doing your normal growing up going to school, working to pay the bills, buying a new car and having no money. Some how thats the norm. Who claimed that to be how life goes ?? Who picked the order things happen ? I mean we all follow this set plan for human kind even if you doing want to it just happens. Well i guess thats life right ,who cares. Well i find myself feeling like im starting over again. Wondering where i would be if i had just gone to college in the first place. Where would i be if 2 years ago i would have gone to KCC like i wanted to. hmm... You know what if i would have gone i wouldnt be the woman i am today . I am not perfect but most of the time i like me ;)

I got a new car ! My 93 cav took a death and a tiburon replaced it ! I love it so much . Its so small and cute. Im going back to school at YSU in the fall for i think journalism but i find myself wondering if i can do it ? Does it fit me ?  I love to write but i wonder will people like my writting... I like doing nails but i think i like it as a hobby more than i daily thing. I really am just kinda over doing peoples feet. I mean really lets think about it. Feet are smelly and gross. I mean you have your average 20 year olds foot not so bad but lets picture the 80 year old woman that has not touched or maintained her feet in like months ... yea gross.

Anyways thats all . stay tuned

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always fair. However you must keep smiling & moving on

** After great trials i failed...i couldnt seem to get the image to load. so imagine with me... a warm fresh out of the oven maple glazed donut **

Can we say Yummy !! This donut for sure wins first place in my heart on the list of donuts !! Coming in a close second would be ... glazed or chocolate glazed . so De-licious !! So besides wondering what your favorite donut is i post this pic to inform the world i have started a second job at everyones favorite ( or at least all the cool peoples favorite ) Coffee shop Dunkin Donuts !! <3  So come visit me. Ill be there working midnights :)

Some other very exciting news in the kBeLL life is guitar! I mean by no means am i great but ive only been playing for a little over a month and i feel like i have an excellent grasp on the basics. I actually just wrote and completed my first song the other night. Keep and eye out for the videos. Opinions are welcomed .